With depression comes feelings of low self-esteem and thoughts of death. This is in direct contradiction to the value people have due to UT2, and is one reason why UT3 exists. But what can you do? It goes with the territory. Rest assured that I’m not thinking of doing myself in, but also know that these are the kinds of thoughts that haunt me frequently, especially when I think I’ve screwed up, which is often enough. If you do read this … well, thanks.
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I suffer from anxiety and depression. For me, nothing is better at making things worse than trying to pretend that these problems don’t exist. And sometimes, nothing is better at piercing that darkness than writing. Sometimes what I write helps bring light into my own personal darkness. Maybe something I write will do the same thing for someone else.

Some of what I write here could be disturbing to sensitive souls (sorry, Mom and Dad, but I need this outlet). If you don’t like what you read here, then by all means go to a different part of the blog and read something else. Thanks!